Give Me Novocaine
The hospital just called.
Pheen is on oxygen. They think the chemo weakened his immune system and he caught an infection, so he's on antibios too.
This shouldn't have happened with low dose chemo.
His white blood cells are wiped out. Again, that should have been impossible.
They're giving him a blood transfusion. His body might rejection it. If it does, he'll crash.
So they asked the SU if we wanted them to resuscitate.
The answer, of course, was fuck yes.
I'm in the unique position of being able to judge this better than anyone. I know so much about pain and suffering and your body failing, and hospitals and tubes and going through the motions.
And for years, i got through it all because I had to come home to my family. i had to fight to come home to Pheen. Because he wouldn't understand, and he needed me.
And I don't believe he loves me any less, or that he's any less stubborn. As long as he can enjoy being with his family, his family will help fight to help keep him there. Period.
I can lose the car, the house, anything I own, but I only have one son, and he's worth more than anything else, far more valuable than anything else I could ever do with money.
That's what got us this far.
But now the hospital want us to discuss funeral arrangements...
No matter how bad the pain is, it can--and will--always get worse...
Pheen is on oxygen. They think the chemo weakened his immune system and he caught an infection, so he's on antibios too.
This shouldn't have happened with low dose chemo.
His white blood cells are wiped out. Again, that should have been impossible.
They're giving him a blood transfusion. His body might rejection it. If it does, he'll crash.
So they asked the SU if we wanted them to resuscitate.
The answer, of course, was fuck yes.
I'm in the unique position of being able to judge this better than anyone. I know so much about pain and suffering and your body failing, and hospitals and tubes and going through the motions.
And for years, i got through it all because I had to come home to my family. i had to fight to come home to Pheen. Because he wouldn't understand, and he needed me.
And I don't believe he loves me any less, or that he's any less stubborn. As long as he can enjoy being with his family, his family will help fight to help keep him there. Period.
I can lose the car, the house, anything I own, but I only have one son, and he's worth more than anything else, far more valuable than anything else I could ever do with money.
That's what got us this far.
But now the hospital want us to discuss funeral arrangements...
No matter how bad the pain is, it can--and will--always get worse...
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