Forbidden Dragon: The BlogGall of Marlo Dianne

"Bagels and Blood", short story, in Big Pulp (February 2010)

'Clockwork Dragon' by Marlo Dianne

"Clockwork Dragon", cover art, in Tales of Moreauvia (December 2009)

"Damp", flash, in Outshine (November 2009)

"Trenchcoats or Atomic Insects?", flash, in Outshine (October 2009)

"The Wedding Feast", short story, in Big Pulp (September 2009)

"Cooville", flash, in Sonar 4 (September 2009)

"Chiaroscuro", short story, in Cinema Spec(May 2009)

"Thou Shall Not, flash, in Everyday Weirdness (April 2009)

"Board Now", flash, in Dog Oil Press (March 2009)

"Whale Bone", flash, in Necrography (March 2009)

"Beneath the Crook", poem, in Goblin Fruit (October 2008)

'Fate Machine

"Fate Machine", story illustration, for 'A Test of Fate', in Strange, Weird, and Wonderful (October 2008)

'Hands Free

"Hands Free", story illustration, for 'It's Just a Child's Toy', in Strange, Weird, and Wonderful (October 2008)

'A Delicacy' by Marlo Dianne

"A Delicacy", story illustration, for 'Eating Bugs', in Strange, Weird, and Wonderful (October 2008)

'Tasty Treat Revue' by Marlo Dianne

"Tasty Treat Revue", story illustration, for 'Wicked Wire', in Strange, Weird, and Wonderful (October 2008)

'Teef' by Marlo Dianne

"Teef", cover art, in Big Pulp (June 2008) (reprint)

"Change", short story, in Written Word (April 2008)

"Hunted", short story, in Big Pulp (April 2008)

"Very Tale", poem, in Tales of the Talisman (March 2008)

'Follow' by Marlo Dianne

"Follow", story illustration, for 'Graduation', in All Possible Worlds (October 2007)

'Pillows' by Marlo Dianne

"Pillows", story illustration, for 'Day Off', in All Possible Worlds (October 2007)

"The Monkey's Eye", poem, in Goblin Fruit (October 2007)

"Flesh", short story, in Down in the Cellar (June 2007)

"Bard's Bones", short story, in Fusion Fragment (March 2007)

'Fantastique' by Marlo Dianne

"Fantastique", story illustration, for 'High Concept', in All Possible Worlds (March 2007)

'Robo Rampage' by Marlo Dianne

"Robo Rampage", story illustration, for 'Iron Man', in All Possible Worlds (March 2007)

'Teef' by Marlo Dianne

"Teef", story illustration, for 'Whitening', in All Possible Worlds (March 2007)

"One", flash, in Tales of the Talisman (December 2006)

"Courting Hell", short story, in Forgotten Worlds (October 2006)

"Id", flash, in Raven Electrick (June 2006)

"A Breath of Power", short story, in AlienSkin (February / March 2006)

Amityville House of Pancakes

"Ahop 2 Cover", cover art, for Amityville House of Pancakes Vol.2 (September 2005)

"Gella Murphy: Public Dick", novella, in Amityville House of Pancakes Vol.2 (September 2005)

"Prick", flash, in From the Asylum (August 2005)

"Inticingly entitled, "Prick" builds more suspense and atmosphere in 200 words than some authors manage in 200 pages. The reader truely does justice to the material, using her intensely erotic voice to give the piece the ... umm... climax it so richly deserves..."
--Decker_Angelis on the audio version of "Prick"

"Another marvelous thoughtful story."
--Abyss & Apex, on "Chiaroscuro"

" appealing magazine to look at, with the bright, childlike simplicity and intricate detail of the cover art catching, and holding, the eye."
--Eneit on "Clockwork Dragon"

"If you couldn't tell out there, Marlo Dianne does not write formulaic crap."
--Jack Mangan, author of Spherical Tomi and host of the Deadpan

"...a good bit of fun..."
--Tangent Online, on "Courting Hell"

"...funny, superbly written and engaging... tongue-in-cheek murder mystery...The story twists and turns harder than a high Alpine road, and Gella's resolution of the mystery came out in a way I did not at all expect. Dianne's pungent writing style complements Gella's gritty narration perfectly."
--SFReader, on "Gella Murphy: Public Dick"

"I can't think of another bunch of authors I'd rather be published with. No, really; all my favorites are long dead."
--Sally Kuntz, author of "Froggie"

"Really original."
--Adrienne Jones, author of Temple of Cod and The Hoax

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Down and Up

I've not been up to much--not just updating the blog, but anything, even talking to people. My own medical condition is....dire, but no one is going to get any joy talking about failed treatments or how much pain I'm, or how long it takes me to get out even a single simple sentence. My muscles aren't working properly. Typing this post hurts, and it will probably take me hours...

But that's not what matters.

Pheen is under my bed. Days three to five after chemo are the worst. He's extra nauseous, and I can hear his poor belly gurgling angrily along with mine. He's also sad and withdrawn, and can't be comforted. I get that he feels like total crap, and snuggles won't make it go away. But I wish they would. For him.

Except for the painfully routine soul-crushing chemo smackdown, he's been doing pretty well. His new medication is still helping him eat. Not enough, but he can eat about half of his food on his own--and way better, he can enjoy it. The other half he's still getting by syringe. But we're winning.

He gets a full check up before every weekly chemo treatment. We were fighting so so hard to stop him from losing more weight....

This week, his weight was up 0.2 kilos.

To put that in perspective, that's like an average human putting on 15 lbs in a week. Oh yeah, WHILE they have terminal cancer and are on chemo.

His doctors thought we were all made of serious amazeballs when we were able to maintain his weight. Putting on weight, any weight, let alone a good amount of it, was yet another thing my boy shouldn't have been able to do.

Yes! Score some more for Team Stubborn!

But we have to give a big squishy hug to pharmaceuticals. I used to be a chemist; the SU's still one. Neither of us had any idea when we went into the field how very much it would really shape and shelter our lives. I would go into details, but only the hardcore geeks could ever care, and then there's the whole Confidentiality Agreements thing...

Oh, and the new med is also helping him sleep. That first time, finding him curled up. with his eyes closed, and deep sighing the blissful breaths of a REALLY good nap--I had to use my fists to stuff down a sob.

It was involuntary, I swear.

I hadn't seen him sleep in weeks. Months, actually. He was exhausted. He spent most of hie time lying, limp, his eyes ripping my heart out by drooping halfway, endlessly, with sheer misery and fatigue. But, our symptoms were cruelly matching up again. No matter what, he couldn't sleep.

Yes, Cancer is that vicious a motherfucker. It even breaks a cat's ability to sleep.

But with this new med, he can doze. It's not as deep or relaxed as his usual sleep, but it tears me up every time. My poor boy.

I wish I could fix everything for him, but still, we found a way to bring back noms and naps, at least a little.

I'm so grateful for the options available to our boy, and the wonderful staff that's helping treat him. I'm also anti-grateful to his insurance company, who, despite so many years of faithful regular payments by us, decided 'Oh shit! This Cancer crap is expensive!' and cut him. I'd say may they die in a fire, but, you know, it would be more appropriate to wish them, or someone they love dearly, cancer. And with the odds being 1 in four, it's so going to happen, bitches. So may you have someone in charge of treatment who is just as ethical and respectful and sympathetic as you have been. Enjoy!

As for me, I'm fighting my condition as hard as I can, trying to hold on and cherish every purr and every nuzzle, and, most especially, every night of family snuggle time (tm).

If you haven't hugged your family yet today, go, hurry! You're wasting your day. And make every hug count.

You never know how many you have...

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Online Portfolio: Small samples of my art.

Forbidden Dragon: Very small online print gallery.

They're Free. Take One. Or All:

"Despair" by H.P. Lovecraft (recorded live, 06/22/07)

Prick by Marlo Dianne (higher res single; posted 02/08/07)

Prick by Marlo Dianne (previously appeared in digital print; August 2005, From the Asylum; posted 02/08/07)

A Fruitless Assignment by Ambrose Bierce (posted 01/22/07)

Id by Marlo Dianne (higher res single; posted 01/13/07)

Star Wars in 230 Words by Byron Starr (posted 12/07/06)

Id by Marlo Dianne (previously appeared in digital print; June 2006, Raven Electrick; posted 11/30/06)

Seen by Marlo Dianne (previously unpublished; posted 10/04/06)

Herbert West: Reanimator - Part 1 - From the Dark by H. P. Lovecraft (04/04/06; posted 05/13)

Herbert West: Reanimator - Part 2 - The Plague-Daemon by H. P. Lovecraft (04/16/06; posted 05/18)

Herbert West: Reanimator - Part 3 - Six Shots By Moonlight by H. P. Lovecraft (05/17/06; posted 06/01)

Herbert West: Reanimator - Part 4 - The Scream of the Dead by H. P. Lovecraft (07/14/06; posted 07/17)

Herbert West: Reanimator - Part 5 - The Horror from the Shadows by H. P. Lovecraft (08/12/06; posted 08/14)

Herbert West: Reanimator - Part 6 - The Tomb-Legions by H. P. Lovecraft (10/18/06; posted 10/18)

The Velveteen Rabbit by Margery Williams (03/27/06; posted 05/02)

Books I've saved, forever free for everyone:

Mary Hartwell Catherwood - The Romance of Dollard (100%)

James De Mille - The Lily and the Cross (posted 01/27/10)

James De Mille - A Castle in Spain (posted 01/05/10)

Robert J. C. Stead - The Homesteaders (posted 04/20/09)

James De Mille - The Cryptogram (posted 03/29/09)

James De Mille - The Dodge Club (posted 10/29/08)

James De Mille - The Lady of the Ice: A Novel (posted 07/07/07)

(As a PP for DP):

Émile Faguet - Initiation into Literature (posted 07/27/03)

Stephen Hudson - War-time Silhouettes (posted 06/17/03)

Ezra Pound - Certain Noble Plays of Japan (posted 06/14/03)

Elias Johnson - Legends, Traditions, and Laws of the Iroquois, or Six Nations, and History of the Tuscarora Indians (posted 06/08/03)

Magnus Gustaf Mittag-Leffler - Niels Henrik Abel (posted 05/19/03)

+474 pages for DP (from April - July 2003)

September 22 2005 - September 14 2013

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