Mental, Experimental
I've been back to the specialist.
It was, I suppose, the weirdest appointment yet. The Specialist took the position that I had tried all the standard treatments, and my best option now was to go untreated. The subtext seemed to be 'you probably won't *officially* die of your disease'.
I was not with this plan.
The Spousal Unit had a counter. The S.U. has channelled stress into research, which means, at this point, by a conservative guess, several doctorates should have been awarded. Anyway, the counter was a treatment the Specialist dubbed 'experimental'. He's never done it before.
I was not with this plan either.
But if my choice is do something or do nothing, it's kind of obvious I don't have a choice. So, stuffing down the urge to flee in panic, I signed on for experimental.
I'm a keep fighting kind of person. Even when I'm losing, and badly, I can't just give up and die. The S.U. has always found it one of my most annoying traits, that I won't back down no matter how much it hurts me.
Irrational Stubbornness, FTW?
It was, I suppose, the weirdest appointment yet. The Specialist took the position that I had tried all the standard treatments, and my best option now was to go untreated. The subtext seemed to be 'you probably won't *officially* die of your disease'.
I was not with this plan.
The Spousal Unit had a counter. The S.U. has channelled stress into research, which means, at this point, by a conservative guess, several doctorates should have been awarded. Anyway, the counter was a treatment the Specialist dubbed 'experimental'. He's never done it before.
I was not with this plan either.
But if my choice is do something or do nothing, it's kind of obvious I don't have a choice. So, stuffing down the urge to flee in panic, I signed on for experimental.
I'm a keep fighting kind of person. Even when I'm losing, and badly, I can't just give up and die. The S.U. has always found it one of my most annoying traits, that I won't back down no matter how much it hurts me.
Irrational Stubbornness, FTW?
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