Thoughts Bloody
Gah.
I've spent the past two weeks in hospitals.
To pick a point of reference, I was vomiting blood. Lots of it. Though, you know, *any* is too much, with blood. I was vomiting every ten minutes. For days.
This was not the low point. It wasn't even in the lower point group, but it's true, and I can say it. The rest of it, I don't want to think about, and I won't talk or write about it. Because that would help me remember it, and I need to rather not.
Anyway, I think 'vomiting blood' is going to become my new shorthand, for a situ that is obviously bad, but way beyond bad, way beyond the worst you've had, way beyond the horrified recoils of others, to a situ that is actually far worse than you'll ever admit to anyone.
I'm still, uh, really really messed up, and I've got more medical intervention scheduled for tomorrow. Yea me and the body that just won't die. Of course, it just won't work either, but hey.
I'm going to argue hard for some med changes. Call me a twit, but yeah baby, I'm still stubborn and crazy and aiming for a bit better than vomiting blood...
I've spent the past two weeks in hospitals.
To pick a point of reference, I was vomiting blood. Lots of it. Though, you know, *any* is too much, with blood. I was vomiting every ten minutes. For days.
This was not the low point. It wasn't even in the lower point group, but it's true, and I can say it. The rest of it, I don't want to think about, and I won't talk or write about it. Because that would help me remember it, and I need to rather not.
Anyway, I think 'vomiting blood' is going to become my new shorthand, for a situ that is obviously bad, but way beyond bad, way beyond the worst you've had, way beyond the horrified recoils of others, to a situ that is actually far worse than you'll ever admit to anyone.
I'm still, uh, really really messed up, and I've got more medical intervention scheduled for tomorrow. Yea me and the body that just won't die. Of course, it just won't work either, but hey.
I'm going to argue hard for some med changes. Call me a twit, but yeah baby, I'm still stubborn and crazy and aiming for a bit better than vomiting blood...
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