Forbidden Dragon: The BlogGall of Marlo Dianne

"Bagels and Blood", short story, in Big Pulp (February 2010)

'Clockwork Dragon' by Marlo Dianne

"Clockwork Dragon", cover art, in Tales of Moreauvia (December 2009)

"Damp", flash, in Outshine (November 2009)

"Trenchcoats or Atomic Insects?", flash, in Outshine (October 2009)

"The Wedding Feast", short story, in Big Pulp (September 2009)

"Cooville", flash, in Sonar 4 (September 2009)

"Chiaroscuro", short story, in Cinema Spec(May 2009)

"Thou Shall Not, flash, in Everyday Weirdness (April 2009)

"Board Now", flash, in Dog Oil Press (March 2009)

"Whale Bone", flash, in Necrography (March 2009)

"Beneath the Crook", poem, in Goblin Fruit (October 2008)

'Fate Machine

"Fate Machine", story illustration, for 'A Test of Fate', in Strange, Weird, and Wonderful (October 2008)

'Hands Free

"Hands Free", story illustration, for 'It's Just a Child's Toy', in Strange, Weird, and Wonderful (October 2008)

'A Delicacy' by Marlo Dianne

"A Delicacy", story illustration, for 'Eating Bugs', in Strange, Weird, and Wonderful (October 2008)

'Tasty Treat Revue' by Marlo Dianne

"Tasty Treat Revue", story illustration, for 'Wicked Wire', in Strange, Weird, and Wonderful (October 2008)

'Teef' by Marlo Dianne

"Teef", cover art, in Big Pulp (June 2008) (reprint)

"Change", short story, in Written Word (April 2008)

"Hunted", short story, in Big Pulp (April 2008)

"Very Tale", poem, in Tales of the Talisman (March 2008)

'Follow' by Marlo Dianne

"Follow", story illustration, for 'Graduation', in All Possible Worlds (October 2007)

'Pillows' by Marlo Dianne

"Pillows", story illustration, for 'Day Off', in All Possible Worlds (October 2007)

"The Monkey's Eye", poem, in Goblin Fruit (October 2007)

"Flesh", short story, in Down in the Cellar (June 2007)

"Bard's Bones", short story, in Fusion Fragment (March 2007)

'Fantastique' by Marlo Dianne

"Fantastique", story illustration, for 'High Concept', in All Possible Worlds (March 2007)

'Robo Rampage' by Marlo Dianne

"Robo Rampage", story illustration, for 'Iron Man', in All Possible Worlds (March 2007)

'Teef' by Marlo Dianne

"Teef", story illustration, for 'Whitening', in All Possible Worlds (March 2007)

"One", flash, in Tales of the Talisman (December 2006)

"Courting Hell", short story, in Forgotten Worlds (October 2006)

"Id", flash, in Raven Electrick (June 2006)

"A Breath of Power", short story, in AlienSkin (February / March 2006)

Amityville House of Pancakes

"Ahop 2 Cover", cover art, for Amityville House of Pancakes Vol.2 (September 2005)

"Gella Murphy: Public Dick", novella, in Amityville House of Pancakes Vol.2 (September 2005)

"Prick", flash, in From the Asylum (August 2005)

"Inticingly entitled, "Prick" builds more suspense and atmosphere in 200 words than some authors manage in 200 pages. The reader truely does justice to the material, using her intensely erotic voice to give the piece the ... umm... climax it so richly deserves..."
--Decker_Angelis on the audio version of "Prick"

"Another marvelous thoughtful story."
--Abyss & Apex, on "Chiaroscuro"

" appealing magazine to look at, with the bright, childlike simplicity and intricate detail of the cover art catching, and holding, the eye."
--Eneit on "Clockwork Dragon"

"If you couldn't tell out there, Marlo Dianne does not write formulaic crap."
--Jack Mangan, author of Spherical Tomi and host of the Deadpan

"...a good bit of fun..."
--Tangent Online, on "Courting Hell"

"...funny, superbly written and engaging... tongue-in-cheek murder mystery...The story twists and turns harder than a high Alpine road, and Gella's resolution of the mystery came out in a way I did not at all expect. Dianne's pungent writing style complements Gella's gritty narration perfectly."
--SFReader, on "Gella Murphy: Public Dick"

"I can't think of another bunch of authors I'd rather be published with. No, really; all my favorites are long dead."
--Sally Kuntz, author of "Froggie"

"Really original."
--Adrienne Jones, author of Temple of Cod and The Hoax

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

My Sweetie is Too Sweet

The body is a wondrous machine.

I remember when I was seven or eight I got this encyclopedia. It was a thin red hardback. It featured the Peanuts, and it was about the body. It was Vol. 1, and it was free at the grocery store. I never got to see Vol. 2.

I was fascinated by the whole idea. How complex bodies were. The whole system of nerves all talking to each other. How fast it was. How I could move, well before I could *think* 'move'. I remember lying in the dark, flexing my hand in front of my face, and thinking about how amazing it was, all those bits and pieces working together.

But the thing about machines is, they break. The more complex, the more unstable. Some come pre-broken for your convenience. Some just have the warranties expire much too soon.

There's been another dire medical situation here at the Dragon Lair, and, horribly, it's not mine.

On Friday, the guys had their annual vet appointments. They were due, but we were also worried about Phoenix. The poor boy just couldn't seem to drink enough. He went from a lick of water a day to draining the water dish--even the bubbler--and he was literally leaving seas of wee in the litterbox. I was horrified at what I thought that meant, and my worry waves were affecting storm systems, and possibly the alignment of the planets. I couldn't sleep.

Or eat. Or think. At least not thoughts that weren't half a shiver from panic attack. My stomach wolverine woke up and tried to claw its way out. Aside from pacing, tearful fretting, and stalking Pheen to the point where I could have provided a three hundred and ten page report, just on how much water he drank that morning and what he did with it and when he moved and where he had napped and how he was feeling about the wheat trade in 17th century Russia, I played Final Fantasy XII. Focusing on hunts and levels and where to find a chocobo, and, as always, slashing bad guys, helped a bit with my twitching, although I would start frequently and have my head whip around checking for Boo. Although he had rarely stirred from the nap location at which I had ruthlessly snuggled him just minutes before.

It was pretty bad at the vet's. He had me flip him over so the vet could use a needle and draw urine from his very full bladder. Pheen has rules, and about five of them are never ever touch the belly, so he was anxious before the needle was even in the scenario. And then, after the vet left to get vials for bloodwork, Pheen growled, and went down on the floor, and while I was petting him and telling him it would be okay, he hid in the corner, and wet himself. :(

It was awful. You can't tell him it's not his fault, he can't understand, he can't understand any of this, and that's the worst part, but of course it's not his fault. His poor bladder was already bursting, and then they jab a needle in it. Anyone would have had an accident. Hell, most of us would have lost it and peed on the doctor. But he didn't believe the comfort; he was humiliated and *extremely* distressed.

Then they had to shave him and draw blood from a vein in the neck. They were as gentle as they could be, and he was good boy, but sucked. They took two vials, as I held his head and told him he was wonderful and how much I loved him and sucked my tears down into my toes.

He *hates* it when I cry. His eyes get shimmery and he crawls into my stomach and gives off worry waves that affect the tides.

They did the dipstick test, and it went green. A normal level of glucose is yellow. As I feared, my little Boo tested positive for diabetes.

The vet left, and I had a few tears leak, and I sucked them back into my toes. My poor buddy was already having one fucking bad day. He didn't need me to make it worse. I had to make it better. That's my job.

I wish my job was also taking two needles a day for him, but instead I have to give them to him.

The good part is it's treatable. Just like for a human, his pancreas is shot and he needs insulin injections, twice a day for the rest of his life. But he'll *have* the rest of his life. That's what counts. I know that meds are worth it, even when they suck.

We had to change all their food, because he needs a special prescription diet. He deeply misses his Temptation treats, but I'm going to make up for it with more chicken. He can still have all the meat he wants, and that bit he'll approve of.

The blood tests came back on Monday, and confirmed the dipstick test.

Yesterday, I learned how to give my buddy an injection. They shaved him bald at his shoulders, and they made me practice on him. That was awful.

We got through. That's what you do for family.

I gave him his first shot of insulin this morning. I was so scared. I didn't want to hurt him. But the needles are small, and he only seemed annoyed that I was fussing over him. That's fine. As far as he knows, I'm just going to insist on an extra snuggle every twelve hours. :)

Afterward, my hands shook for an hour. I'm just happy they held it together when they had to. I'll get better at it. I'm going to get lots of practice. At least ten years of it, I hope.

He's already got a bit of his pep back, although if we move too fast around him he dashes upstairs to hide, convinced we're going to stuff him in the carrier and off to the vet's again. The great part is he has the pep to sort of dash; the bad part is he *does* have to go back to the vet. He has to spend twelve hours there, all alone, on Monday. They want to monitor his glucose levels, to help get him regulated. They'll be jabbing for blood every hour. But the worst is that we can't be there. It's horrible to see him hurt, but it's so much worse for him to be hurt and alone.

That will be a long lonely day.

At least he won't see me cry.

Sometime on the weekend, in a random moment from inside the hyper stress ball, my jittering brain thought this:

My sweetie is too sweet, and I have the blood tests to prove it...

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Online Portfolio: Small samples of my art.

Forbidden Dragon: Very small online print gallery.

They're Free. Take One. Or All:

"Despair" by H.P. Lovecraft (recorded live, 06/22/07)

Prick by Marlo Dianne (higher res single; posted 02/08/07)

Prick by Marlo Dianne (previously appeared in digital print; August 2005, From the Asylum; posted 02/08/07)

A Fruitless Assignment by Ambrose Bierce (posted 01/22/07)

Id by Marlo Dianne (higher res single; posted 01/13/07)

Star Wars in 230 Words by Byron Starr (posted 12/07/06)

Id by Marlo Dianne (previously appeared in digital print; June 2006, Raven Electrick; posted 11/30/06)

Seen by Marlo Dianne (previously unpublished; posted 10/04/06)

Herbert West: Reanimator - Part 1 - From the Dark by H. P. Lovecraft (04/04/06; posted 05/13)

Herbert West: Reanimator - Part 2 - The Plague-Daemon by H. P. Lovecraft (04/16/06; posted 05/18)

Herbert West: Reanimator - Part 3 - Six Shots By Moonlight by H. P. Lovecraft (05/17/06; posted 06/01)

Herbert West: Reanimator - Part 4 - The Scream of the Dead by H. P. Lovecraft (07/14/06; posted 07/17)

Herbert West: Reanimator - Part 5 - The Horror from the Shadows by H. P. Lovecraft (08/12/06; posted 08/14)

Herbert West: Reanimator - Part 6 - The Tomb-Legions by H. P. Lovecraft (10/18/06; posted 10/18)

The Velveteen Rabbit by Margery Williams (03/27/06; posted 05/02)

Books I've saved, forever free for everyone:

Mary Hartwell Catherwood - The Romance of Dollard (100%)

James De Mille - The Lily and the Cross (posted 01/27/10)

James De Mille - A Castle in Spain (posted 01/05/10)

Robert J. C. Stead - The Homesteaders (posted 04/20/09)

James De Mille - The Cryptogram (posted 03/29/09)

James De Mille - The Dodge Club (posted 10/29/08)

James De Mille - The Lady of the Ice: A Novel (posted 07/07/07)

(As a PP for DP):

Émile Faguet - Initiation into Literature (posted 07/27/03)

Stephen Hudson - War-time Silhouettes (posted 06/17/03)

Ezra Pound - Certain Noble Plays of Japan (posted 06/14/03)

Elias Johnson - Legends, Traditions, and Laws of the Iroquois, or Six Nations, and History of the Tuscarora Indians (posted 06/08/03)

Magnus Gustaf Mittag-Leffler - Niels Henrik Abel (posted 05/19/03)

+474 pages for DP (from April - July 2003)

September 22 2005 - September 14 2013

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